Sometimes i just feel lyk crying my lungs out coz i oways make stupid decision!sumtimes i feel tt my sadness are self-created coz if sum tins i nv sae or do or wateva i wont get tt kinda ending!i just don noe wat i reali want or need...I am feeling so lost at a crossroad not knowing which direction to go...I don noe where to head..sumtimes i even find myself pathetic...coz I nv see happiness at all...the problems tt are cuming to me this few days is tearing me apart...I no longer know hoe to cope with my life animoe....I lost my sense of judgement...I don even noe wat the hell i am doing at times! I NEED A POOF POOF!argh!I noe i don look stress..i look as if i don care abt my studies...bt it isnt the truth...the pressure i am receiving is enough to nail me down...the results i am getting is enough for my emotions...argh..ok i finish venting my anger...i am gg to blog abt wat happened...erm..i am not gg to blog abt ytd coz i cannot rmb anitin abt ytd...my mind is empty...alrites..got to sch late bcoz i don noe wateva the reason is..the rain or myself i don noe..i was late...ok..i tot it was lang revision 2dae coz sis said so..n in the end it was alll wrong...had bio ppr correction section n i was quite happy bt nt veri happy coz i gt back 1 mark bt is lyk it dosen make a big diff coz in the end i still fail wat so wats the big whooha abt it...i was feeling pleased with myself though...coz i ain't tt stupid right?am i?alrites went for recess me n siva went to chop place as mel n grace wenta print sum photos...took chairs n all n when we are back this bunch of stupid neh neh idiot ignorant retarded stubborn bloody sec 2s SAT at our place!they think they noe magic or wat!the table suddenly gt so mani chairs!cum on mans!stupid or wat!n this stupid wear specs girl think she veri cool arh!refused to give up the table n still tell her fren wat jiang yi qi...jiang FANG PI!KNS!u tink u veri brave mehs?irritating sec 2...wateva..i ate alot i am gaining loads of weight!argh!stupid!den went for maths n i gt scolding frm ms kok la coz i din lis properly coz i was half awake n i did the wrong ppr la...toot!ok i fell aslp a couple of times!i don noe y i just feel lyk i was on a spell or sumtin or maybe maths just makes me fall aslp la hurs!ok done...went for art mrs ow nv fail to call jubina this n tt...bt sumtimes i tink she's a nice person bt sumtimes i feel tt she is too biased..i don noe la..bt wateva she sae does makes sense to me..n i feel so encouraged lehs!coz in my prep she said tt my sketches improved!n i feel happy coz its last min work it meant tt if i do it earlier i can do better..bt i felt embarrassed coz i din noe wat leonardo da vinci art was abt!dumbo me la!lols!ok went for brk...its so intense mans everybody lyk doin doin doin...studying studying...i feel so scared!bt i feel productive doing maths tgther lols!haha...i feel tt i can understand better coz mel n siva can teach me mahs!=)))))thanks!hehe..ok..den went for maths lesson..our teacher was "Ms Dick lee" many did not prefer her teaching us those kind...i don noe y la bt i feel more secure with her teaching bcoz maybe i am those kinda tradditional type ...i onli can stick to one person those kind...aiya wateva la...after maths stayed back with mel shit n merlion to do maths..i did erm 1 ques onli i tink?or maybe 2 i don noe i tink its one lehs!bt nvm la gt do can le mahs...wah the thunder was scary mans!i was so afraid of the lightening can...i came home all wet the rain is so heavy to the exent tt i looked as if i just finished bathing with my clothes on...-_-||| i noe it sounds lame bt is true lors...ok...had a fight with my sis coz she flare up at me while teaching me maths in the end she still teach me lols...yay!actually i don reali understand bt i just pretend..bt still i understand?ok..n den i was lyk saein i feel lyk eating mac n here mum cum home with mac!lols is grandpa buy one la!haha damn nice!although is nt wat i want bt i am still happy, i am easily contented!=)))I LOVE MY GRANDFATHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!although i not veri close to him bt i can feel his love for me!haha...ok i eat alot...!argh!isit reali so irritating to sae sorry?i reali don noe how to stop myself frm doing so i cannot stop myself frm saein sorry when i feel bad...haiz..i don noe la...i feel tt my hrt is so heavy...so burdened...when i look back, i don noe wat to sae la...thought dear times ten oways ask me nt to look back..bt if i don look back how wld i noe wat lies ahead...n to lau sai...if there isn't any failure how wld we noe tt we need improvement...these 2 sentences is the most sensible statement i ever make in my whole life...ARGH!GIVE ME A BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I just feel lyk crying...I am gg off to to to to to to watch tv...bye blog..i'll be back tmr..