i guess bcoz of the breakdown i had last night..i woke up crying...my eyes was so tight...due to all the crying..have been having bad dreams for a long time...everyday i have been having many dreams...there were happy dreams bt to me i noe tt they are also called " impossible dreams"....i dont wish to dwell on it..bt inside me there are some conflicts...sumtimes i cant even fall aslp when its already 3 plus coz mani tots get into my mind...nowadays i have been bloggin alot coz i got no one to share my sorrows n happiness so i could onli express everything thru my blog....yeps....i feel tt this few days i cry easily...makes me feel lyk a weakling....alrights...woke up n papa bought rice for me ???weird right rice in the morning bt i had to eat it coz if i don eat it its gonna turn bad when im back frm sch....purposely wake up early coz i din wanna be late bt in the end i wasted half n hr eating my fish rice...-_-|||....alrites din finish it too much.. so i left it on the table aftr wrapping it..wenta bathe n all n i kip tinkin i have to bring my book for reference bt i forget abt it in the end agn and onli rmbed aftr i take 113....how dumb can i get mans...feel retarded n my uniform lyk simply tight for me coz i grow fatter agn...WTH!ok den reached sch don even haf a single soul there lars..sianz..wenta the genral office to collect key but i wasnt allow to do so coz mrs ow din inform the general office i was there for 30 mins b4 i got the key coz mr yeo pitied me...lols n the general office auntie was lyk the OM so nice to u...n i smiled back coz i don tink he nice to me?bt i reali grateful coz he helped me ....nhe said i si bei wu liu...coz of the badges i have..lame n i told him it was 3 for a buck...n so...took the wrong key aniwae went in with grace n she had to squeese in to open the connected door for me cox i too fat le..lols...ok n i gt nth to do coz i din bring any reference...dumbo waste time...n i helped mel with her art din noe if i contributed or made her work worse coz i reali don noe...hope she is satisfied with the final result coz i tink she did a gr8t job coz it was a long process!*GOOD JOB!*alrights...had to carried the bulky canvas and lans' ppr home...she betta thank me..lols jk!ok den reached home ate ice cream n treated bro n he had 3 servings...rather rare coz he normally don take such stuffs...n i make jap chics...asked bro bt he said he was havin pimple n he did not want it...lols...din noe he so love beauty(ai mei)ok den when i fell aslp papa woke me up!!!!!!ended up with a bad headache...don noe y den mama cum home le....mum gave me sum fried rice eat it n wenta plaza to buy dinner..bought kinder bueno....cai fan for daddy n shared lor mee with mum coz sister was buying "BUR-GER" for me...haha nice nice nice!!!!!!!slurps!had ice cream n many kinder bueno its reali my fav la!!!!!!1cant resist it at all!erm...i have been wanting to eat my fav muffin for many days....WISH WISH WISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!who knows wats my fav muffin?onli i noe lols...retarded!o my sis oso noe...lols...i cant get myself to hate a person...i don noe y...even lyk ppl lyk XR AND E AND V although sumtimes i reali hate them but i reali pity them...coz i noe not everybody is perfect n tt their character might be bad but they are still nice in sum ways?yeps...this is not a contradiction bt hw i view them...yeps...have been waiting for DBSK ad since ytd i tot i was dreaming abt it until grace confirmed with me tt she saw it too...